Ohhh what a weekend. Fun times Friday night in Clarendon which unfortunately ended in the karmic event of me losing my wallet at some point between the portico of my building and actually entering my apartment... which is really mysterious to me being that I was relatively sober and had my wallet with me when I paid the cab driver... Odds are it stayed in the back of the cab and someone else now has my identity and $20 on my smartrip. This is only karmic because I, of course, felt the need to be rude to the cab driver because he was 1. driving like a complete and utter lunatic and 2. had no idea where he was going which I find slightly offensive since I got in the cab approximately 3 miles down the SAME ROAD that my apartment is on.
Anyway- as a result of my spacey-ness I spent Saturday morning and afternoon doing a marathon SPRINT all over NOVA to get my drivers license and debit card replaced before both the DMV and bank closed at 12 and 1 respectively. I waited at dmv for 2 hours after having to leave the line because I forgot my social security card (turns out they don't accept that as a form of identification anyway so I should have just stayed in line....). Anyway- I was fortunate enough to deal with some really accomodating people at DMV and the bank because I was miraculously able to get everything that I needed done and taken care of. Not the most ideal way to spend a Saturday but at least I fixed everything.
After the entire debacle of reclaiming my identity- I had zippy energy to do anything fun Saturday night (which was unfortunate because Lila had a friend in town and I behaved like a major party pooper). G and Alex came over for pizza and games and we had a fun low key night of question cube and catch phrase.
And to remedy the exhaustion and distress of the weekend I slept off and on until like 11:30 this morning- which was nice but now I feel really lazy and like a total waste of space. Add this on top of still feeling disgusted with myself from losing my wallet and here I am feeling pretty useless. I am so tired and just want to crawl into my bed and sleep until I can forget about how stupid I am. I need this week to start so I can go back to feeling like I'm doing something productive and meaningful. Meanwhile- I guess I will just snuggle up with harry potter and try not to feel too sorry for myself haha.
On another note- it does not feel good to not be trusted for no valid reason whatsoever. nothing hurts more or makes me angrier than hearing accusation and judgement in someone's voice when they are both trying to beat around the bush and are completely off base. Also-I think I've discovered a new hobby- cooking! More to come later, but in the meantime just call me Chef Amanda.
Sunday, February 21, 2010
Monday, February 15, 2010
Victory!
Days like today are good for the soul. Despite the long day at practicum with lots of kids continuing to cancel sessions because they can't get out of their neighborhoods (thanks fairfax county and surrounding DC metro area for being AMAZING during a winter snow crisis-ha!)and the inservice I'd prepared being postponed last minute- today was awesome.
The kids that did make it to the clinic had great sessions, I had several interesting and educated conversations with other SLPs about topics that I am really excited about learning about- pediatric feeding, apraxia of speech, etc... my supervisor is great and is really trying to work with me to help me get in as many eval hours as possible during the remaining half of the semester AND I got the chance to talk to some of the CFs at the clinic about the awesome CF program they offer there- they all seem to enjoy it a lot and are getting to work with really diverse caseloads and learn a ton. The SLP supervisor at the facility works really closely with them and seems to be an awesome resource for all of us to have around.... NOT that I am interested in investigating a job at this particular clinic (for various other reasons) BUT it is really nice to know that I might be getting my foot into a door that could lead to some awesome opportunities in the future IF I change my mind. Plus its always nice to have options...
It's days like today where I realize that I can do this job. I have worked so hard for the past 6 years and it feels really good to see the benefits of hard work. I'm going to love the career I chose for myself and I'm beginning to believe I can really be good at it.
PLUS when I got home the first thing I saw were the lovely red tulips Tory got me for Valentine's Day and then I ran 3 mi in 26.5 minutes. I am feeling rather victorious about conquering this wet, cold, and blustery winter day.
The kids that did make it to the clinic had great sessions, I had several interesting and educated conversations with other SLPs about topics that I am really excited about learning about- pediatric feeding, apraxia of speech, etc... my supervisor is great and is really trying to work with me to help me get in as many eval hours as possible during the remaining half of the semester AND I got the chance to talk to some of the CFs at the clinic about the awesome CF program they offer there- they all seem to enjoy it a lot and are getting to work with really diverse caseloads and learn a ton. The SLP supervisor at the facility works really closely with them and seems to be an awesome resource for all of us to have around.... NOT that I am interested in investigating a job at this particular clinic (for various other reasons) BUT it is really nice to know that I might be getting my foot into a door that could lead to some awesome opportunities in the future IF I change my mind. Plus its always nice to have options...
It's days like today where I realize that I can do this job. I have worked so hard for the past 6 years and it feels really good to see the benefits of hard work. I'm going to love the career I chose for myself and I'm beginning to believe I can really be good at it.
PLUS when I got home the first thing I saw were the lovely red tulips Tory got me for Valentine's Day and then I ran 3 mi in 26.5 minutes. I am feeling rather victorious about conquering this wet, cold, and blustery winter day.
Tuesday, February 9, 2010
A Lesson in Being Humble
It's been 6 days since I was last at my internship. I have enjoyed the 5 day weekend I have had since DC got 2+ ft. of snow and was able to recover from a slight head cold and catch up on some sleep during the process. But as of today I'm finding myself a little bit bored and stir crazy... itching to get back to my little toddlers and learning about the career I have chosen for myself. Unfortunately, Mr. Weatherman is forecasting another 10+ inches tonight and tomorrow so I am afraid I wont be going back just yet. Major downfall to all of these days off: my training has taken a major hit. I haven't been outside to run in 10 days and I'm ready to pull my hair out on the treadmill. I am getting so bored and having to mix it up with cross training on days that I am supposed to be running.
But... the snow is beautiful and I know when summer rolls around I'll be whining about how miserably hot it is so I guess I should enjoy the winter wonderland while its here- back to being positive, right-o!
Also- I've got an adventure planned in the form of a possible trip to NYC at the end of the month. Just a weekend away but I am looking forward to possibly getting out of this city and spending a few days with some old friends. More details to come!
And now- a random aside, something I've learned recently:
A brief lesson in being humble: the more time and effort you spend pointing out your superiorities... the more likely people are to notice when you are nothing more than mediocre and the less forgiveness you'll experience for the faults that only make you human. People most often prefer to discover a person's endearing qualities independently and would rather not have them thrust in their faces. Let your behavior, your actions, your successes, and your inevitable failures speak for themselves. If you're as good as you believe you are, the message will come across even stronger. Thats my new resolution for myself. From now on I am going to strive to achieve nothing more or less than the goals I set for myself. And my ability to accomplish them will change me in no other way than making me a better person with a better understanding of the importance of discipiline, diligence, and hard work. I will work to accomplish my own goals and dreams and in the process I will try to uplift others as they do the same. I will not try to bring people down for fear that they will do better than me. I will be proud of the efforts of others and continue to acknowledge hard work when I see it. I will strive to set an example of the humble behaviors I'd like to witness in others. I'm going to try hard.
Another random aside- I love Tory, he's my silent hero.
But... the snow is beautiful and I know when summer rolls around I'll be whining about how miserably hot it is so I guess I should enjoy the winter wonderland while its here- back to being positive, right-o!
Also- I've got an adventure planned in the form of a possible trip to NYC at the end of the month. Just a weekend away but I am looking forward to possibly getting out of this city and spending a few days with some old friends. More details to come!
And now- a random aside, something I've learned recently:
A brief lesson in being humble: the more time and effort you spend pointing out your superiorities... the more likely people are to notice when you are nothing more than mediocre and the less forgiveness you'll experience for the faults that only make you human. People most often prefer to discover a person's endearing qualities independently and would rather not have them thrust in their faces. Let your behavior, your actions, your successes, and your inevitable failures speak for themselves. If you're as good as you believe you are, the message will come across even stronger. Thats my new resolution for myself. From now on I am going to strive to achieve nothing more or less than the goals I set for myself. And my ability to accomplish them will change me in no other way than making me a better person with a better understanding of the importance of discipiline, diligence, and hard work. I will work to accomplish my own goals and dreams and in the process I will try to uplift others as they do the same. I will not try to bring people down for fear that they will do better than me. I will be proud of the efforts of others and continue to acknowledge hard work when I see it. I will strive to set an example of the humble behaviors I'd like to witness in others. I'm going to try hard.
Another random aside- I love Tory, he's my silent hero.
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