Why oh why ohhhh why

...did I think it would be a good idea to wait 14 months to get married? What a rediculous idea. Granted, I would be KICKING myself right now if I were planning a fall wedding with everything that is going on right now but I swear- if we actually make it to the April 30th celebration without making it official before then.... 1. you'll never know and 2. it will be a miracle.

But lets be realistic for a minute here- so far all we've got planned is the date and venue. I have had 1 unfruitful attempt at dress shopping, spoken with 1 DJ (actually promising), 3 photographers (a little too promising), and have a tasting for catering next Wednesday. My latest planning hiccup is that I really like 2/3 of the photographers... buuut I can't decide on one. Both have similar styles but different approaches. One has more experience, but the other offers a much more attractive package for a comparable price. Tory is also (conveniently) on the fence. I think I might have to default to my maid's and my Momma on this decision (brace yourselves).

And I thhiiink we might have picked a first dance song- but who know's if we'll change our minds in the next 8 months... still, its something.

Even the colors are up in the air at the moment, oyyy.

Anywho, the long and short of it is that I just can not wait to marry this amazing man who makes my day every morning when I wake up knowing I am going to spend my life with him.

The good with the bad

In life's testiest moments we are offered the rare opportunity to witness first-hand, the true colors of the people around us. I have been both proud and disappointed in what has been unveiled to me in life's most recent adventure.
I have experienced a family that has come together to care for one anothers' body and spirit. Certain individuals have put the weight of the world on their shoulders to lend a helping hand to their loved ones. Being surrounded by these individuals has inspired me to also put myself and my own needs aside to do my part. After many a sleepless night, and many miles logged on the ole rav4, I am proud to say that in less than 9 months, I will officially be a part of this wonderful group of people who love each other so unconditionally and who really show up for each other when the going gets tough.

On the other hand, I have also been rudely awakened to the fact that there are people in this world who are so involved in themselves and their lives that they can't muster the empathy to put themselves in another person's shoes. Even people who make their living "caring for others" and "caring for the sick" seem to have disappointed me in this arena. I don't know what has happened to people to allow them to lose their human connection with others but it often makes me wonder... what is this world coming to? How can some people be so completely involved in themselves to fall so immeasurably short in their relationships, their friendships, and hell, even their jobs? And what has happened to these people that they are either a. clueless to their behavior and how it affects others or b. indifferent to it.